long time i did not post something at here~~~this few days~ feel so lonely~alway saw my friends talk about their lover~ how sweet they are with their partner~ i do not know weather i’m envy or what~ just feel myself very lonely~no people are listen to me when i was sad~ but i will share my happiness with my friends~so many friends beside me~ but no one are close into my heart~ no one understand what i thinking about~ for them~ yee ning was strong~ wont cry~ she is a taekwondo black belt~ she does not need any protection from others any more~ there are such stupid conclusion about me~ yee ning just a normal girl~ she need protection from others~ she need a shoulder too when she feel sad~
but what i meet before~ hurt me, scold me, left me alone~ i hate people hurt me~ it’s pain~ but still got many people trying to hurt me~ i scare myself will get hurt again~ i alway reject people that chasing me~ sorry for them~ maybe i’m selfish~ but i really don’t want myself to get hurt any more~ that’s the way i protect myself~ i was scare~ don’t blame me please~
if want to blame, please blame the people that was hurt me before~ blame the people that alway call me to have one night stand with them~ i’m scare~ but what can i do? any one can tell me? any one will understand my feeling? maybe my wearing was open~ but that does not mean i’m open~ can make love with any boy~! i hate people call me to have one night stand with him~!
yee ning was lonely~~~~ maybe i should learn how to face lonely by myself~ with my tears~

heloo~^^

yesterday (18.9.08) had just pass my 18th birthday~
yesterday…. can say normal……
eat cake also need to pay by myself…. eat Mc donald too~
so pity… some more dun no why so unlucky…. saw a stupid guy for 4 times~go ecm saw him, mega mall saw him, even go beach i also saw him~arh~then my friend still broke his promise~ he promised me want bring me to the beach there to have Mc donald with me… but he din do it on that day~then a little small brother just 15 years old…. asked me weather i want to watch porn movie with him or not~ (^*&^$^%#$%$@%
birthday~so unlucky~ made me cried on my birthday~ i hate you all~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but got some happy things happen too….in that day, i meet a new friend… n i get a present from him… a set of counterfeit nail (kuku palsu)… but!!!!!!!! i stick the nail on my real nail… after that i dunno how to take it off already… now still thinking the way to take off the counterfeit nail…
other than that, i received other present too…. and i received a birthday card from my indonesia-chinese friend… haha… so happy…^^
18 year old already…. big already^^ well….
birthday wish~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~hopefully all ppl that beside me will happy alway~ and…. my future bf will come out faster…

*sorry for any grammer problem~ learning and improving my english~ if can not understand what i wrote~ just read the chinese word below~~~^^

昨天(18.09.08)过了我的十八岁生日~
昨天嘛~可以说跟平常没两样吧~一切正常~
吃蛋糕要自己付钱~吃麦当劳也是~
真可怜~还有不知道为什么那么倒霉~遇到个无聊人四次~去ecm看到他，去mega mall也看到他，去海边都看到他。再加上我朋友对我食言~说好了要带我去吃麦当劳的但他没做到。然后有个十五岁的小弟弟问我要不要和他一看色情片~^$%$(*)*%&^%*&^
生日都那么倒霉~都把我给弄哭了~讨厌你们！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！！
但是~还是有开心的事发生的~当天~认识了一个新朋友~还收到他的礼物呢~一套假指甲~可是！我贴了下去就不会脱了~现在还在想着办法~
除此以外，我也收到其他的礼物~我也收到一张生日卡~一个印尼华侨朋友寄来的~哈哈~好开心~
18 岁了~大了噜~那么。。。
生日愿望~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~希望我身边的每一个人都可以开开心心的~和，我的真命天子快点出现~^^

from kit chian
hehez~ from qing~


from andrew, sia, angie, goh, n koo



from hui yin, zi jian, ah wong, su ying, eli, jei hul, ai ling, wai wen, suit yee and dunno who~ cant remember all... :P

from kerina, yinn jeng, poi xuan, jin jin, n yek ching

my present^^

from yet wei~~ ( dunno how to take off after wear this, very paiseh~:P)