long time i did not post something at here~~~this few days~ feel so lonely~alway saw my friends talk about their lover~ how sweet they are with their partner~ i do not know weather i’m envy or what~ just feel myself very lonely~no people are listen to me when i was sad~ but i will share my happiness with my friends~so many friends beside me~ but no one are close into my heart~ no one understand what i thinking about~ for them~ yee ning was strong~ wont cry~ she is a taekwondo black belt~ she does not need any protection from others any more~ there are such stupid conclusion about me~ yee ning just a normal girl~ she need protection from others~ she need a shoulder too when she feel sad~
but what i meet before~ hurt me, scold me, left me alone~ i hate people hurt me~ it’s pain~ but still got many people trying to hurt me~ i scare myself will get hurt again~ i alway reject people that chasing me~ sorry for them~ maybe i’m selfish~ but i really don’t want myself to get hurt any more~ that’s the way i protect myself~ i was scare~ don’t blame me please~
if want to blame, please blame the people that was hurt me before~ blame the people that alway call me to have one night stand with them~ i’m scare~ but what can i do? any one can tell me? any one will understand my feeling? maybe my wearing was open~ but that does not mean i’m open~ can make love with any boy~! i hate people call me to have one night stand with him~!
yee ning was lonely~~~~ maybe i should learn how to face lonely by myself~ with my tears~